Well, I’m at my parents’ house in VA for the weekend (to celebrate my sis’s 15th birthday and a friend’s wedding!) and unfortunately forgot my camera cord, so I can’t share pics of all the delicious food we’ve been eating (read: almond butter and apples, almond butter and honey-nut Cheerios, almond butter and bananas–I’m on a bit of a kick), or photos of the lovely hike I enjoyed with my mom this morning, or the yummy homemade “frappucinos” I’ve been whipping up (soymilk + coffee + ice + raw chocolate + sugar in the raw), but tomorrow I’ll be back in NYC and plan to post them ALL!
A few thoughts . . .
- My intuition is telling me to eat lots of fruit + nut butter these days. I am listening to it.
- I went to WW on Thursday after a 2-wk. hiatus and was up 2.6 lbs. (which I attribute to the two weekends away!), and yet my family keeps telling me I look like I am losing weight. I am really starting to think that the scale is a bad way of judging fitness. I feel myself getting in better shape, so I’m going to go with that!
- Sometimes, posting pics of all the food I eat on here puts food in the forefront of my mind more than I’d like. I’m trying to think about food less and LIVE more. So, I’ll only be posting pics when I’m in the right head-space to do it
- I need to change my expectations. Recently, I’ve felt myself reverting to this mentality: “I need to get back to where I was. I need to be ‘in shape.’ I need to be able to wear the clothes I wore when I was 19.” It’s been awhile since I reminded myself why I don’t want to “go back,” so here goes: I was unhappy. I was obsessed with food and exercise. I wasn’t honest about my feelings. In short, I fundamentally changed who I was as a person, it was really confusing, and I’m still finding my way back. There’s nothing about my life that I need to “overhaul”–I already enjoy exercise and healthy foods. I just need to keep trusting myself, trusting my stomach, and trusting my cravings. I’m already in a much, much better place than I ever was, and it can only get better from here.
What do you need to remind yourself of today?
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May 24, 2009 at 6:26 pm
Great thoughts here and i’m glad you’re having a wonderful time at home! I’m having similar issues as i’m saying I need to be back at 135 which may or may not be healthy for my body.
May 24, 2009 at 6:57 pm
Great thoughts! I agree that we need to continually remind ourselves of why the backward thinking is in no way a productive nor fun way to live! It’s hard, but it’s a learning curve. Well done for recognizing the pattern!
May 24, 2009 at 8:58 pm
Great bullet points! Fruit and nut butter is always great! Your increase in weight but “loss” in real life (family’s comments) could be muscle? Do what you have to do to be happy and satisfied in the here and now – don’t compare yourself to your 19yo self
May 24, 2009 at 10:01 pm
So glad you’re having a good time with the parents! And almond butter + fruit= so good.
I totally ditched the scale. It can’t tell me how well my fitness goals are going, only ME!
May 26, 2009 at 3:38 pm
Great thoughts! And if your intuition is telling you to go with AB and fruit, well, no reason not to follow that! Since your fam is telling you you look like you’re losing weight, I wonder if maybe your body is redistributing some fat vs. muscle, which might not reflect on the scale. Not that I’m an authority on that. The scale can be evil though, so if you fit in your clothes, you can probably kick that bitch to the curb.
May 27, 2009 at 1:44 am
How in the world do you always read my mind?
I’ve been thinking a lot lately too on why I’m so focused on “getting back” to where I was before, on eating the way I used to, etc. etc. Sooo not productive, and if I really stop to think about it, I was not 100% happy doing it that way either. So important to remember! I can take lessons from the past, but the focus needs to be on the future!
May 27, 2009 at 2:35 am
Yes, I like the idea of giving yourself a little slack. I’ve been trying to do that recently and in general, I feel happier. The last few days I definitely overdid it in the food dept though, so I’m feeling kind of bluh, but I’m NOT going to let it ruin me. It’s ok to forgive yourself and move on.
All that almond butter sounds delicious